Denial
Denial
I feel the cat’s claws, digging into my tongue
When my reflection, asks who I am
I never mourned you
Just fed you to my shadow
Heartbreak led to hedonism
Created a cornucopia of denial
With neatly decorated lies
And cleverly crafted excuses
Disenchanted and desensitized
Desperately clinging to vanity
As insecurity starts to claw through
Speechless
Crawling back to my castle
Where phantom limbs
Caress romantic memories
Undertow (Swim Away)
You carved out my heart
But I sharpened the knife
Betrayal turned into control
When you begged for forgiveness
Sacrificed my dreams and desires
Thought I could love you, and you’d change
Enabled with love, while reason atrophied
Second chances disguised as compassion
You could smell loneliness
Like blood in the water
Caught in the undertow
I saw your fin approaching
But didn’t have the self esteem
To swim away
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